"Which Starbucks?"

Last Monday my parents took my cell phone away. Yes, I am twenty.... but I also live at home so there's that.

They gave it back last night. I told most of my friends that I "lost it" which isn't lying... I just left out the part where I threw a temper tantrum and got my toy taken away.

But anyways.... I've been trying to catch up on all the snapchatting I missed. (I had 43 snaps)

Like, what is life if you don't snapchat it? Granted my friends only get snaps of my dogs, me with my dogs, me complaining and maybe me driving while white girl rapping to Drake. But I mean, I've gotten worse snapchats like of peoples feet walking. It's like, okay? Cool, bro. WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU WALKING TO?? Totally pointless. At least write, "Going to the library" or some shit like that.

I got a nanny gig today. Met the mother at the Starbucks at Town Center. This seems like it would be pretty simple, but it's not. There is a Starbucks in Albertson's and then there is a separate Starbucks not 300 feet away equipped with a drive thru.

The kid is 3.5 years old. I wasn't used to that age, but it went well. I would make houses and stuff out of Legos and he would come destroy it. I also introduced him to "The Fox" by Ylvis. I'm sure his mother is very pleased about that...

On a side note: I ate way too many mashed potatoes and I feel like the blueberry girl from Willy Wonka.

K. I'm done.

Peace 0ut.

I Can't Seem To Make My Problems Disapear...

Tomorrow my mother, sister and I are all driving to Manhattan Beach, CA.

I had things to do today... I needed to pack, clean my room and tidy up the house. (it's always nice to come home to a clean house) Even though I made a list of everything I needed to do... I was entirely unsuccessful.

I'm really hoping that on this vacation I'm able to get some clarity and really discover what I want/need from life. I'm sick of suffering from this disorder that makes me feel lazy and useless. But let's be honest... I just wanna get drunk on the beach.....

The Seemingly Unavoidable Ally McBeal Moments...

Ally McBeal is before my time, but before my time is usually my favorite genre. If you've ever seen the show you know that it stars an unstable, selfish, over-emotional, slightly insane lawyer named Ally McBeal, played by Calista Flockhart. I loved the show, but hated Ally... mostly because she was just obnoxious. She would often hallucinate things like unicorns and dancing babies, but more importantly she would disappear into her own "world". This is the only part of Ally's craziness that I understood. 

I have found that I'm very good at pretending life isn't happening. I forget about deadlines, lose track of time... it's almost as if I have an alternate universe where I'm able to forget about everything that burdens me in life. It's easier that way, but it's not making me a better person. 

The gift of escapism is catching up with me.

If you have found this blog it's probably because you have some connection to Dyslexia or a disability called "Executive Function Disorder". In addition to these two disabilities I also have ADHD. 

I am starting this blog because I am sick of slipping into the comfortable Ally McBeal moments. I want control of something in my life and hopefully this blog can act as a catalyst to change how I live my life. 

My mom says that if I can just apply self discipline to one or two things... the rest will eventually fall in place. I'm hoping she's right. 

xoxo,

Caroline