I Can't Seem To Make My Problems Disapear...

Tomorrow my mother, sister and I are all driving to Manhattan Beach, CA.

I had things to do today... I needed to pack, clean my room and tidy up the house. (it's always nice to come home to a clean house) Even though I made a list of everything I needed to do... I was entirely unsuccessful.

I'm really hoping that on this vacation I'm able to get some clarity and really discover what I want/need from life. I'm sick of suffering from this disorder that makes me feel lazy and useless. But let's be honest... I just wanna get drunk on the beach.....

The Seemingly Unavoidable Ally McBeal Moments...

Ally McBeal is before my time, but before my time is usually my favorite genre. If you've ever seen the show you know that it stars an unstable, selfish, over-emotional, slightly insane lawyer named Ally McBeal, played by Calista Flockhart. I loved the show, but hated Ally... mostly because she was just obnoxious. She would often hallucinate things like unicorns and dancing babies, but more importantly she would disappear into her own "world". This is the only part of Ally's craziness that I understood. 

I have found that I'm very good at pretending life isn't happening. I forget about deadlines, lose track of time... it's almost as if I have an alternate universe where I'm able to forget about everything that burdens me in life. It's easier that way, but it's not making me a better person. 

The gift of escapism is catching up with me.

If you have found this blog it's probably because you have some connection to Dyslexia or a disability called "Executive Function Disorder". In addition to these two disabilities I also have ADHD. 

I am starting this blog because I am sick of slipping into the comfortable Ally McBeal moments. I want control of something in my life and hopefully this blog can act as a catalyst to change how I live my life. 

My mom says that if I can just apply self discipline to one or two things... the rest will eventually fall in place. I'm hoping she's right. 

xoxo,

Caroline